Thursday, December 16, 2010

Oh, baby!

"For a long time there were only your footprints & laughter in our dreams & even from such small things, we knew we could not wait to love you forever." ~storypeople.com

I've referenced this Story People "story" before, but today it is so much more meaningful - I'm pregnant! I got a faint second line on an HPT this morning... and I'm still not convinced it's real.

I had had some symptoms that could've been anything - feeling tired, crampy, having a lot of sinus issues, and a kind of burning/aching feeling in my boobs. I was convinced I was making all of it up as I do every month. This morning I took a test and was remarkably calm when I saw that line show up. I just got in the shower and started doing my hair and putting on my makeup! Then I dug the Bengals onesie I'd bought a few cycles ago out of the closet, and when my husband woke up I told him Santa had brought him an early Christmas present. He opened the bag and I said, "You might not want it at this point, but..." (because the Bengals are having a terrible season). And he stared at me, and I said, "I took a test this morning." And he said, "Seriously?!" Then he came and hugged me and said, "That's awesome!"

When I showed him the test he asked if I was sure it was positive, and I assured him that after staring at all of those blank white spaces for months that I knew what it was! I will still follow up with a digital to prove it to him and I'm sure I'll be peeing on sticks for a few days to convince myself too. I told him, "Just so you know, it's gonna be a girl." And when he went to leave for work he said very nonchalantly, "See you girls tonight!" *insert my giant smiling face here*

The morning was so ridiculously ordinary that it is hard to believe. I called my doctor's office and set up my first appointments - my nurse's appt is on Jan. 18 (around 8-9 weeks), and my first OB appt is the first week of February. How will I ever wait that long?!?

With all of the happiness, though, I am also scared. I have seen so many of my lovely Bumpies come back to the board all too soon due to chemical pregnancies and miscarriages, and I know that I have a long road ahead. I am just hoping and praying that this Christmas miracle sticks, and that we get to bring home a beautiful, healthy baby at the end of August!

8 comments:

  1. I'm still so excited for you!! I just can't express it. haha! Yay!!

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  2. I'm praying for you! Congratulations! <3

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  3. So very excited for you! Prayers and best wishes to you and your lil' babe:) Merry Christmas!

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  4. I am so, so excited for you! Congratulations, and I am hoping you get to bring this baby home in August as well!

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  5. I'll just say it again here, I'm so incredibly happy for you! I know you are scared, but focus on the positive. That's all you can do right now, everything else is out of your control. So, be happy today and tomorrow and the next day. And know you have lots of good thoughts and prayers heading for you!

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  6. So excited for you:) Congratulations again!

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  7. Merry Christmas! Congratulations :)

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