Happy 3rd Birthday to You!

Dear Amelia,

Happy third birthday, sweet pea! You just keep growing and growing, smarter and more fun and more beautiful with each day and month. There's a quote I've been seeing that sums up your personality pretty well: "And though she be but little, she is fierce." You are so sweet and loving - you happily give "BIG hugs" and kisses, but you are stubborn and know what you want, when you want it, little girl! I hope you'll continue to channel that passion and drive into your life in positive ways as you get older. Despite all of that, you are still pretty well-mannered and happy. Sleep is still an issue for us but we're working on that, right? We tried moving you to a big girl bed by taking the front off your crib, but you cried and begged us to put it back on after two days, so back it went. We're happy to let you stay little as long as we can!

You still love reading books, playing dress up and pretend (you love princesses, Frozen, and using your toy stethoscope as a lasso when you're a cowgirl). Gymnastics is still going well, even though it's hard for you to wait your turn sometimes. We've finally gotten the hang of potty training (I know you'll be thrilled to read this later in life). You've moved up to the 3-year-old Honeybee room at school and I know I'm biased but you are so darn smart - sometimes too smart for your own good! You speak so clearly and carry on conversations, but you also love to be silly and love to be tickled. You're great at coloring inside the lines already (I think you got that artistic talent from Daddy) and you love to sing. I feel like you surprise me with a new song every day.

At your three year check up yesterday you were 34 lbs (75th percentile) and 37.5 inches tall (50th percentile). A reflection of your love of eating! You aren't too picky - you'll eat chicken, pork ("fork" as you say), salmon, broccoli, and green beans, but your favorite is still macaroni and cheese.

We had your Teddy Bear Picnic party which actually happened on your birthday this year, and you had a lot of fun with our friends and family. We are so proud of you, baby. You are such a joy, and while you're shy and hesitant around new people, once you warm up to them they can't help but love you! And your daddy and I love you so much.

Love always,
Mommy

20 Questions with Amelia, Age 3

1. What is your favorite color? Blue

2. What is your favorite toy? Books

3. What is your favorite fruit? Apples

4. What is your favorite TV show? Doc McStuffins

5. What is your favorite outfit? Watermelon dress

6. What is your favorite game? Phones (playing games on Mommy's phone)

7. What is your favorite animal? Koala

8. What is your favorite song? ABCs

9. What is your favorite book? Llama Llama

10. Who is your best friend? Zoey

11. If you had $100 what would you buy? Milk

12. What is your favorite thing to do outside? Play ball

13. What is your favorite drink? Water

14. Where is your favorite place to go? The store

15. What do you like to take to bed with you at night? Elephant

16. What is your favorite snack? Bunny Grahams

17. What is your favorite thing to eat for breakfast? A cereal bar

18. What is your favorite thing to eat for lunch? Macaroni and cheese

19. What do you want for dinner on your birthday? Cupcakes and cake

20. What do you want to be when you grow up? BIG!

Why I Hate *That* Question

I got one of those comments on a Facebook post last week, on a random Timehop picture I'd shared of Amelia: "So when is she getting a little brother or sister?" Let me go on record and say I HATE THIS QUESTION. For so many reasons. I bit my tongue and replied with, "Maybe when she sleeps all night and we win the lottery." But the friend couldn't leave it alone. "If I'd waited for those things I'd never have had my second kid." To which I replied, gritting my teeth some more, "Well, the good thing is everyone gets to decide what's best for their own family. *smiley face*" Some other comments ensued, and I considered a new status that told the truth about exactly why I hate that question, but I didn't. I chickened out, because I feel the things that I have to say on that subject are not things that anyone wants to hear. Because I feel like saying them in a public forum makes me vulnerable, and ruins my credibility as a "good mom." And because I'm not sure I want to share some of those feelings with my beautiful daughter, at least not when she's young. So I'm going to say it here, even though I have said some of these things here before.

*deep breath*

What I wanted to say is that before Amelia was born, I loved babies (and most kids, really). I wanted to hold every newborn I could get my hands on, and I didn't even care if they cried. I had always thought I would like to have three kids, though I thought two might be ok. I wanted nothing more than to be a mom. Then I became one, and everything changed. I loved my baby. And I do not ever, EVER want her or anyone else to think otherwise. But the first year of her life was hell in so many ways. I know all mothers (and fathers) face an adjustment period where they realize their lives have been turned totally upside down, and they struggle to find a "new normal." But it wasn't just that for me, for us. She had colic and reflux and UTIs, and she never slept. Every time I heard about other people's kids taking three hour naps, I wanted to cry. Ok, sometimes I did cry. My baby took 20 minute naps. And she cried so much. I could never put her down or the crying started again and I never knew when it might stop. It didn't last for a week or two, it lasted for months.

I Googled the symptoms of PPD several times because I felt so lost and desperate and exhausted that I felt there had to be something clinically wrong with me, because there was no way what I was feeling was normal. I relished every second of every trip when I could run to the store alone for more ($30) formula. But the symptoms didn't really match up with what I was experiencing. So I suffered, and my marriage suffered too. I became the mom and wife they say you shouldn't become - I put my child first, all of the time. There was no room for me to give any time or energy to my husband when this tiny little person who I had wanted more than anything was consuming my every waking moment and making me question my sanity.

Things got a little better as we approached the one year mark, but A was still napping twice a day for 40 minutes and waking up 2-3 times a night. So there was still no "me" time. I could hardly do two loads of laundry, let alone sit down and eat a meal and read a book or catch up on DVRed shows. I was always tired. When I was away from her, I missed her. When I was home with her, I felt like I couldn't give her enough time and energy. It was a vicious cycle. Of course I relished those beautiful baby smiles and giggles and her first steps, and when I watched her sweet face as she slept I was in awe that she was mine. That I was someone's mom. But somewhere in that year, something inside me changed. When I read pregnancy announcements, I of course was happy for the mothers in the abstract sense. But I was no longer excited. I didn't get the twinge and longing to have another baby of my own like so many of my friends with children A's age described. Babies to me were no longer cute little cuddly beings who I wanted to hold and coo at. They were ticking time bombs, a source of constant stress and worry and endless need. And that made me so unbelievably sad. And it still does, as I am fighting back tears as I type this.

Amelia is now 2 1/2. I will be 33 in two months. And the baby clock, it's a-tickin'. I know the odds of a high risk pregnancy increase at age 35. If we're going to have a second child, I don't want them too far apart in age. And with my work schedule and no paid maternity leave, there are only a few months where we could TTC in order for that to work out. And all of that is if we are able to have a second child. Which is the other reason I hate that question. So many couples deal with losses and infertility, including secondary infertility, that you just never know what is happening in someone's journey.

I have a beautiful, smart, amazing daughter who I love more than anything in the world. And while I think there is nothing wrong with having an only child, there is a part of me that desperately wants her to have a sibling. There is a part of me that thinks yes, I do still want another child, but that part of me is in constant conflict with the part that fears next time I could totally lose myself. That I could do irreparable damage to my relationship with the beautiful child I already have if a second time were like the first. Coupled with the other common fears of how could I possibly love another child as much as this one/what if a second child had a major medical issue/how would I ever get two kids out of the house alone/my 2 1/2 year old still doesn't sleep all night/we can't afford two kids in daycare/what if I'm really sick during my pregnancy this time around... It's a constant battle in my head. So yeah. There's the answer. I wish I were brave enough to share it with the rest of the world, but right now I'm not. So if you do get to read a pregnancy announcement from me in the coming year or two, know that I realize it is truly a blessing, but it's one that comes on the heels of a serious internal struggle I never imagined I would face.

On the night you were born...

Dear Amelia,

Yes, I know I just wrote you a letter a few days ago. But this week the hospital where you were born is being demolished. You were born in August, just months before our new hospital opened in November. Seeing the pictures and videos of the place where you were brought into this world being torn down is making me a little emotional. I know, silly Mom - it's just a building. But that building is where my life began - literally, and my life as your mommy.

I wanted to tell you about the time we spent there. Before you were born, Daddy and I went to CPR and childbirth classes at the hospital. I knew my way around the labor and delivery area because your cousins Bella and Zoey were born there not long before you were. During one of our childbirth classes, a huge summer storm hit and we heard them announce a "Code Black" over the PA system. Scary stuff! We were evacuated into the waiting room of labor and delivery to wait for the storm to pass.

The next time we would set foot in that hospital was the night you were born. Mommy had been in labor at home all day, and finally around 10pm we headed to the hospital. Because it was after hours, we knew we had to register in the emergency room. I remember sitting with Daddy as the woman took all of our information, and having to pause when a contraction hit. Your Grammy and Grandpa met us there, and we went up to labor and delivery shortly after. I was first put into a triage room so they could decide if you were really on your way. I was nervous, but we found out we would be staying that night to welcome you into the world.

We were set up in our room, and I'll spare you the details until you want to know them, but four hours after we left our house, you arrived. At the time there were no separate delivery rooms so we stayed put the whole time. Because we had arrived so late in the evening, we spent two nights there instead of one. The nurses took great care of us, and that room became a safe home for the few days we were there. When it was time to leave, I was scared of being on our own. But off we went, back out into the "real world," to begin our life as a family.

So yes, it may just be a building, but it was a building full of memories for me and for so many people we know and love. It makes me sad to think that I won't be able to drive by the hospital one day and show you where you were born, but I wanted to share these memories with you so you could have the most important part of that building for yourself.

Love always,
Mommy

Letter to Amelia - 2 1/2 Years

Dear Amelia,

I feel like I say this every time I write one of these letters, but I can't believe how much you have grown. You're on your way to 3, and that is so hard to believe. You're still my baby! But you are definitely becoming a little girl. You are such a bundle of sunshine and energy. Every day with you is an adventure, and I love the conversations we have now. You are always making Daddy and I laugh. You love to sing and I was so proud of you at your Christmas program and your performance this past week at daycare. You sang the songs (mostly) and weren't afraid of an audience. Not surprising since you are always entertaining us. We're still going to gymnastics on Saturday mornings and you've mastered the forward roll and walking on the beam. You've walked on the lowest one by yourself and were pretty successful. It's been a long, very cold winter and I know we both can't wait until you can play outside again.

You still love books and currently your favorite is a search and find animal book you got for Christmas. You're starting to learn letters and can write a capital "A" with no help from us! You also love playing with Mr. Potato Head, your blocks, dress up with your "princess" skirts and jewelry, and you like to cook for us in your kitchen. You love it when the "tea" is too hot and we spit it out - so funny!

We're working on potty training - you're doing great at daycare but your stubbornness seems to take over at home. We'll get there! You're starting to realize you have choices in life and like to make your opinions known. You like to choose your clothes when we let you (you take your "sparkly boots" off/put them on yourself, and you also can take off your coat - "I do it!"). You would eat macaroni and cheese (or as you sometimes say, "noonles") for every meal if you could, but you still also love green beans, "blockly" (broccoli) and fruit, and you'll usually try whatever Daddy and I are eating. You ask us for your "violins" (vitamins). It took Mommy awhile to understand what that one meant (thanks for translating, Daddy!).

At your 2 1/2 year check up last week you were 30 pounds, 2 oz and 36.5 inches tall - in the 75th percentile. Apparently you still are not a fan of sleep because you wake Mommy up once at least three nights a week, and you don't know the meaning of sleeping in. You still nap pretty well though, and last weekend Mommy loved snuggling up with you in our bed and taking a nap together. You love giving "big hugs!" and I taught you to give Eskimo kisses before bed which you call "kissy nose."

It's so much fun to watch you learn and grow. Daddy and I are so thankful for every day with you and we love you oh so much. I am so lucky to be your mama.

Love always,
Mommy

Hooray, I'm 2 1/2!

Blog of Shame

Um...have I really not posted since November? Oops. I'm coming back, I swear. Life has been crazy with work, a lack of being on any sort of real schedule due to snow (we are currently at 8 missed days and countless two hour delays for my district after this nasty winter), and well the holidays. Which were almost two months ago. Yowza.

I'm hoping to post a two and a half year update/letter for Miss A. I probably have a few other things to fill you in on after that if you haven't written me off yet. (Spoiler alert - no, I'm not pregnant, since that seems to be the question everyone asks you once your kid turns two.)

Until then, here are a couple of holiday pics of my adorable, grown up girl. You know, since I haven't seen you all since then. In the words of Ah-nahld, I'll be back...

Christmas Eve 2013

 

Valentine's Day 2014

 

That's My Girl! (kind of)

*Disclaimer: I am totally, 100% stealing this idea from Lacey over at Life of Lacey.*

99% of people who look at A or her pictures say (with good reason), "She looks just like her daddy!" The handful who tell me she looks like me? Well, they've likely never seen her dad. I have scrounged up a few pictures from when I was young where there is kindasortamaybe a slight resemblance. But there is no mistaking she is my husband's daughter.

When it comes to her personality, though, a bit of her mama peeks through. She seems to be a good combination of both of us - which I suppose is good and bad, depending on the trait!

FOOD
Amelia is, and has always been, a pretty good eater. While she has recently learned she has choices and chooses to exercise them (she requests cheese and "squeezie pouch!" countless times a day), there are very few foods she refuses to touch. Actually, none come to mind. For awhile she wouldn't touch potatoes in any form (I could live on potatoes) but she will happily try just about anything - spicy, squishy, crunchy, cold - you name it, she'll eat it.

My husband is a foodie and is the cook in our house. I wouldn't even cut up a raw tomato or raw chicken until about five years ago, and mushrooms are my kryptonite.
Daddy - 1, Mommy - 0

SOCIALIZING
My kiddo is super shy when meeting people for the first time, or even when interacting with family members she doesn't see often. She's pretty obvious about it too - avoids all eye contact, turns her head, buries it in mom or dad's shoulder, hides behind your legs. She spent her first week or more at her new daycare crying/being held by the teacher (I did the exact same thing when I was in preschool, only I imagine it was harder for the teachers to hold a four-year-old on their lap...). My hubby is still kind of shy and doesn't like new/different situations. So I'll call this one even.

However, I have overcome the shyness thing as I've gotten older. And I love being out and about whenever possible. Amelia, once she gets over her initial discomfort, is quite the silly social butterfly. And she has always enjoyed getting out of the house for a change of scenery. I'm with her on that one, and hoping for a future shopping buddy.
Daddy - 1, Mommy - 1

TOUGHNESS
We've said it since she was young - she's got "a Miller head." Meaning she is tough and bulldozes through/over/around anything in her way. When she falls down or bumps her noggin she often doesn't even cry. She is physical in every way. My mom has told me several times, "You thought you would have a boy - I think you got one anyway." My husband and his brothers played football and have more scars and old injuries than I can count.
Daddy - 2, Mommy - 1

(note purple mark on her forehead where she ran into... who knows what)

PLAYTIME/LEARNING
I think I have a pretty imaginative girl. She's at that great stage where she loves to pretend, whether it's taking care of her babies, cooking/serving food from her play kitchen, or singing silly songs. She loves to read books, and has quickly picked up on numbers, shapes, and colors. (Bragging point - her teacher said she is the only one in their room who knows most of her colors.) My husband was not the scholarly type. And he once told me, "I don't think I've ever read a whole book in my entire life." (As I had a family friend who used to call me "Bookworm" because I was always reading, this statement prompted me to ask, "Do you ever wonder how we're even together?!")
Daddy -2, Mommy - 2

Since we're even at this point, I think I'm going to stop while I'm potentially ahead (we're not counting that she looks just like him in these totals, right? Good.) There are plenty of other ways I think she takes after each of us, from sleeping with her elephant and blankie (still have mine!) to her quick temper/frustration (all Daddy! Ok well...maybe some of me too). I love seeing her personality develop, and I always wonder what the future will bring. Hopefully a good mix of both of us!

Q&A with yours truly

I'm stealing these questions from a blog by a wonderful mama I know in real life. Because I have yet to link my "online world" and my "real life world," I'm not going to provide the direct link to her blog. But she is the mother of a little boy with autism and a sweet little girl, and she writes wonderfully about that and many other things. Let me know if you'd like her info!

1. what is something that people assume about you? is it true?

Hmm... I think people sometimes assume that I've got it all together. That I know what I'm doing. The truth is I feel like I am flying by the seat of my pants most days, and I end many of them wishing for a do-over. I struggle with indecisiveness and anxiety about everything from Halloween costumes to finances to having a second child. It usually isn't reflected on the outside IRL, but it is there for sure.

 

2. if happiness were the national currency, which kind of work would make you rich?

 I have always wanted to be a preschool or kindergarten teacher. I would also love to somehow write for a living.

 

3. do you remember that time last year when you were really, really upset? does it matter now?

Yes. And yes, it does. Maybe not as much as it did at the time, but it's something that has helped me learn to stick to my convictions and trust my instincts.

 

4. if you could offer a newborn child one piece of advice, what would it be?

Sleep!!! But get all the snuggles in you can. Adulthood doesn't come with enough hugs.

 

5. what is something interesting that you know now that you didn't when you were 16? 21?

OH, the things I didn't know then! I'm not sure I even know where to begin. Here are a couple of things I would like my former self to know.

 

At 16 - All of that high school stuff doesn't matter. The friends, the enemies, the boys - all that matters in the end is you, because you're stuck with yourself for the rest of your life. So make the most of that time!

 

At 21 - Your fate isn't sealed the moment you get your college diploma. Live life and experience it. There's no rush for the next stage(s) of your life to begin.

 

6. were your parents right?

Yup. Pretty much! Though I never really argued with them too much.

2 Year Letter to Amelia

Dear Amelia,

All of those parents who told me, "Time flies," who I didn't believe when we were in the thick of the tough stuff in your first year, the days that seemed never ending... oh sweet girl. They were right. You - my BABY - are TWO. Or as you have been telling everyone who asks, "twos." I love you more than I could ever put into words and have so enjoyed watching you grow over the past year, from baby to toddler. I look at your pictures and can't believe how much you have changed in such a seemingly short time.

What's going on in your life right now? We spent our first summer together of mommy being off work. You started to learn how to swim (on your own terms, just like everything else in life!). You fearlessly climbed the biggest slides at the playground and slid down. You wanted to see the elephants at the zoo (just like "ell-int" you sleep with). You decided you needed a cup of water in your crib every night, which made mommy feel like you were a bit too grown up. Just before you started your new "school" when mommy went back to work, you finally stopped taking bottles. You've had a little bit of a hard time adjusting to your new school, but you're working on it. I know despite your big personality and fearless ways, you are a lot like your mama was when I was young - shy and unsure of new people and places.

You love playing with dolls - feeding them, holding them, tucking them in for "night night". Playing pretend is a big activitiy these days. You love "tiddy tats". You call cows "moos" and chips "blips." Speaking of which, you are more into "nacks" than eating meals, but you are still a great eater who loves cheese and fruit and always want a bite of anything mommy and daddy are eating. Your two year molars - the last of your baby teeth - are just barely starting to peek through, and sometimes you still wake up a time or two at night, here and there. At your two-year check up we learned you grew four inches in the past six months! You're now 29 lbs 3 oz, and 34.5 inches tall.

You love to sing "The Wheels on the Bus," "Itsy Bitsy Spider," and "Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star," and often do so into your microphone. You can sing your ABCs and count to 13, and we're working on colors and shapes. You love to watch "Buppies" (Bubble Guppies), play with guitars, and read books. 

It is so hard for me to capture in a few paragraphs all of the ways you light up our lives - all of the amazing new things you learn and do every single day. We love you so much, munchkinpants. Happy Twos-day!

Love,
Mommy

How I Spent My Summer Vacation

Long time no post, bloggy friends. I apologize. I wasn't on the computer at all this summer, and Blogger has decided it hates me. There were no blogs showing in my reader feed until now, so I'm sorry I haven't caught up with you all - on to that soon!

My summer break started in mid-June, and I returned to work this past Monday. It's been an adjustment for sure - getting up early, A starting a new daycare (there have been tears but she seems to be adjusting - maybe more on that later), and remembering what it's like to only have a few hours a day for munchkin time, me time, the hubby, and anything else I need to cram into my day.

But back to summer vacation - here's what's been going on with me for the past two months or so:

Family Time/Party Time

We enjoyed spending time with my cousin from Arizona, Fourth of July with family in from Florida and Georgia, went to my cousin's daughter's 4th birthday party, another friend's son's first birthday party, a baby shower for an amazing friend expecting her rainbow baby, celebrated my dad's birthday, had lots of cookouts, and ended the summer at a wedding for a family friend (see bottom right selfie).

 

 

Fun Stuff

We tried out story time at the library - epic fail. A was the oldest in her class and just wasn't having it. She spent more time trying to run out of the room than listening to stories or participating in songs. Pulling all the books off the shelf was another fun activity there.
 

Mommy and Me swim lessons lasted for two solid weeks, during the chilliest part of summer. We had a couple of rough days, and far be it from my child to actually follow what the instructors wanted her to do (kick board? No way!) but by the end she was really swimming!

 

(YouTube also hates me and won't let me embed a video.

She really gets going around the 50 second mark.)

 Just keep swimming...

 

We also took trips to a local dairy farm with animals and awesome ice cream, the zoo (first carousel ride!), and the fair. There were numerous trips to the park and school playground near our house. Oh, and she saw her first theater movie. Monsters University - she did surprising well for the first hour, and then got a little squirmy (and kept shouting, "Oh no!" when things happened). There were also a few playdates, morning walks, and of course, some lazy time lounging around the house.

 

 

And speaking of "Fun Stuff," Mama got a girls' night to herself to go see Fun. as well - outdoors on one of the hottest days of summe - shew! 

  

Though I am obviously sad our summer has ended, I feel so incredibly blessed to have had this time with A. I can't believe how much she is growing and changing and becoming far more toddler than baby. I'm already looking forward to next summer. Next up - my baby is turning TWO two weeks from today! I've been planning her "Tea for Two" party for awhile and will be sure to share more after the party. I'll also tell you about all of the awesome stuff she's up to in her 2 year letter.

 

If you want to see more of what's going on with us, I'm participating in the August #fmsphotoaday challenge on Instagram - sem513.

 

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And, as it turns out, I just saw this is my 100th blog post. I feel like that deserves some sort of celebration, but alas, I have no cake!





The Unexpected

I've read a lot of those blog posts in recent months - the ones that appear in my Facebook feed, telling me it's ok to be an imperfect mom. And I appreciate that in an age of pressure from Pinterest and supermom Facebook posts and the like, the truth about motherhood is being shared. A post I read today got me thinking about those moments - the ones you can never expect. The ones that I was sure would never happen to (or be) me. My munchkin is approaching her second birthday, and while I love her more than anything, it has not been an easy journey to get to where we are. Forget "What to Expect When You're Expecting" - this is my "What You Couldn't Expect When You Were Expecting" list. The hard truth. Because as it turns out, I didn't know...

...what colic was until Miss A spent hour after hour, day after day, month after month screaming and crying. That our first night at home wouldn't be picturesque and full of snuggles. That instead it would be full of screaming (her) and sobbing (me). I didn't know the frustration or helplessness or desperation I would feel, to the point where I dreamed about running away from home for a few hours or even a few days.

...that I would be so exhausted during the middle of the night wakeups and feedings that I would fall asleep with her on my chest, only to wake up panicked hours later, afraid I had dropped or smothered her. That I would feel so lonely and helpless at 2am (and 3...and 5...) that I would cry while she cried. And sometimes before I even went to bed for the night, knowing what was coming.

...that I would come to greatly dislike breastfeeding because it further isolated me (having to go into another room to feed her around male family members) and because I was the only one who could feed her (no time to pump when you have to hold your child 20 hours a day, lest the crying started again). That despite that dislike, I would feel immense guilt and sadness when I decided to quit.

...that physically my child would not be perfect. From jaundice at day 1, to reflux/swallowing/dairy issues, to urinary tract infections starting at 4 months, to majorly bowed legs that continue to cause her fall more than other toddlers. It seemed there was something every week, every month. The doctor's appointments, the tests, the hospital visits...I have driven the 45 minute trips alone with my baby, entertained her in countless waiting rooms, and been emotionally exhausted more times than I care to remember.

...that it would take until she was 20 months old for her to consistently sleep through the night, to be able to soothe herself, to be able to be laid down in her crib still awake. That it would have been two years since I had slept for 7+ hours at a stretch for more than a week at a time.

...that I would struggle with the guilt of working full-time - longing to stay at home with her, wanting to make our time together count, but feeling so tired or consumed by chores when I got home that she would spend a bit too much time watching tv or playing without me.

...that I would be so fiercely protective of her, her schedule, her routines that it would be hard for me to let anyone else care for her. Even her own dad.

...that despite all of our struggles, I would be amazed every single day watching her grow. That waiting 19 months for her to call me mama would make it that much sweeter to hear. That I would get so much joy when she learned a new word or phrase. That seeing her sweet face in the mornings accompanied by her tiny, excited "hi!" would erase the cloud of the previous day's shortcomings on my part.

I could never, ever have known or expected the way things would go. I can't be sappy and say I wouldn't change a thing. But this journey of munchkin and mama is uniquely ours, and at least I can say it has never been dull or predictable!